Saturday, August 4, 2007

buenos noches pornocation

I don't know where to put this, but I feel like I should say it out loud. I don't think this blog gets much traffic, so I reckon it's not too much of a commitment to say it here, but maybe it will also fall upon the right eyes, to whomever they belong.

pornocation 2007 is over. I don't think I really experienced that until now, and I've been here as a Feck employee for four months. pornocation was about motion, was about rapidity and evolution, was about consistent self-challenge and even disruption. It was blunt and it was abrupt and it was intense.

When you are new to a place, it is difficult to believe that you are really there, and it is difficult to identify yourself with your surroundings. This is why we find ourselves looking out at Chicago and imagining it's Amsterdam, or back-floating in the Pacific whilst we're ferrying 'cross the Mersey. (Apologies.) I think that this feeling of transition, of liminality, of shifting perspectives between 'home' and 'away', has been pretty consistent since pornocation began. I'm not saying that those things won't continue to occur, but I think it's going to shift down a gear or two; it has to.

Some things have been hard. Like finding my way around this new existence. Attempting to be self-contained. All these new people - and what are they going to think of me?! A bit of sexual overkill, a bit of sexual frustration, a bit of sexual psychoanalysis. What the hell is a sausage roll, and who is going to give me hugs?

Of course you think about bailing in a situation like this - I imagine jumping a container ship and going seafaring once and for all! - and of course that is unwise. But I really must say that, despite whatever the anxiety-of-the-moment might be, I am affirmed in my desire to support these websites with my various sorts of labour. I believe in what we are doing, and I feel that we answer to the ethical challenges posed to a sex-positive 'online erotica' (read: 'internet porn') company in the best way we know how. We evolve necessarily and we try to stay in check. I get to meet and talk to so many of the folks who contribute their sexualities and desires and statements to the sites, and nothing feels better than when what we do has helped them in some way, or that we made good of something they were uncertain about. I also think that a lot of the members are eager to create sex-positive erotic spaces, and they give much more than just their subscription dollars to the creation of those spaces. I love what we do, and I love helping out.

Thanks, everyone. pornocation est finis.

Oh, and here's a picture, which makes everything much more exciting:

1 comment:

Unknown said...

you are so sexy, I love EVERY vdo you have placed on Ifeelmyself...Great work and when will you post next ?


C from the USA!